悲しい ><"


~Assalammualaikum , hyee

You know what ? Sometimes , I felt really terrible for just being .. M E :) I hate the way I feel , the way I talk about something , the way I look , the way YOU look and the way PEOPLE look at me . I felt really isolated and small , like a tiny protozoa . Nobody cares , nobody understand .. Just like that plain , tiny protozoa .

Hating myself is another way of having fun , you know ? I can see my very own disrepute . So hate-able by all . Arr , I am starting to get ridiculous . Actually , I want to tell something in this entry update .

I have read an update , and of course it is somebody's . I don't know why , but my guts tell me that the update is about me :D Maybe I am 'perasan' or something . Dunno . So that's why I want to write it here . So that YOU and I can be clear once again .

I have perfectly no intention of hating you or anything . I just want to share what I felt with people around me . I never thought that it would turn out to be misunderstood , especially by YOU . And I want you to know that I am fully sorry about that . Truly , truly , truly sorry . I am such a fool for saying those things . Even though I have no intention behind it . Gomene 1000x

I think it must be frustrating for you to be one of the people around me , right ? I'm a jerk , foolish minded , selfish , grumpy , jealous , little minded girl ! Even I get angry with myself all the time . Grr , hate ME . Hate me so much I could just punch myself right in the face . Haishh ..

I really really hope that you will accept me once again . I just act foolish around you , that's all .

Maaf 1000x 
Sorry 1000x  
Mianhe 1000x  
Gomene 1000x 

 //Ireally-reallyhopethatIwillnotactfoolishagain

~Wassalam , xoxo


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